hi, i know i havent been blogging for 10 years.
reason being i've got nothing long to blog about.
usually its just a sentence, some comments, or a short paragraph.
however today, i came across something. i thought about it, and i felt like blogging.
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i didnt regret, not at all.
after leaving, my life was much better.
i dont have many female friends, that doesnt make me pathetic.
im just selective, and judgmental i'll say.
i make friends based on how i feel about the person.
like ive said before, to me, its very simple.
its either you're in my circle, or you're out.
people come and go, people do change, and sometimes thats when they're out of the circle.
my concept is, good friends, i dont need a whole lot of them.
there's no point in having so many friends for you nvr know who is true to you.
tell me in your circle of friends, how many of them have been saying bad stuff about you?
its very obvious to see who's in my circle, and there isnt a lot of them.
i wont say im not a flirt, although i dont have intentions like that, because im pretty sure there are people who thinks i am.
if having many male friends make me a flirt, then everyone that has alot of the opposite sex friends are all flirts? what kind of mindset/explanation is that?
is it because of your own jealousy that caused all those that happened or is it really me? i would really think of it as you're fucking paranoid. worse than a girl.
if you could think about it the other time, if you could heed advices, maybe things wouldnt turn out like that.
whatever that happened then just proved that there wasnt any trust. and according to my concept, by not having trust, its enough to crash everything because arguments will just occur non-stop and there wouldnt be an end to it.
in my opinion you're just one fucked up jerk who ruined by life the other time. i dont think its my fault for things ending up like that. i have my own mistakes, but you caused all the major ones, and it escalates each time.
im a person with such a pussy personality when it comes to boyfriend, however you're the only one who doesnt make my blame myself, not even for a single bit, because even your good/best friends said i'd be better off without you. do you know what it meant? you're fucking pathetic.
i have no idea why that email affects me so much to the extent of questioning myself once again. but i guess im not that much of a pussy anymore. i wont say its my fault anymore. you made me realise, that not everything is my fault. your friends made me confident and also made me did the right choice that was given by you then. those 7 choices, are bullshit! they're not choices, they just let me saw the pathetic part of you. and throughout the whole email, i only agreed 1 thing you said, i loved the wrong man, i shouldnt love you.